You Already Know

I just purged almost 30 of my old journals.  Before I released them, I arbitrarily flipped through a few pages here and there to see what I could learn about the woman who wrote them.  I learned that I knew a lot more than I gave myself credit for!  I intuitively knew what mattered to me, what I wanted more of in my life, and what I needed to release.

My first reaction after reading entries that were almost a decade old was, “Why did it take me so darn long to act on my intuition?!”  For whatever reason, I wasn’t ready yet.  It wasn’t the right time.  There were still lessons to be learned, experiences to be had, and deeper connections to be made with people I value and love.

Another thought occured to me as I sat on the floor surrounded by my old journals- I ALREADY KNEW!  I already knew what I wanted to change even though I didn’t know HOW to change it.  I talked to people in my inner circle; I had dreams; I experienced synchronicities that supported and validated me but I just wasn’t ready… YET.

“But”, I smiled, “I’m ready now.”  How do I know for sure?  Because the synchronicities, dreams, and intuitive feelings are aligned.  I feel the support of the Universe, Great Spirit, Love, whatever you choose to call it.  The time is NOW.

Here’s an example of the mysterious, magical way the Universe works…

Three years ago, I stayed late at the school where I was working because I was attending a “Welcoming Tea” for the families of incoming first graders.  As the rising second grade teacher, it was my responsibility to welcome the first grade families and introduce them to the woman who would be their child’s new teacher.  (In Waldorf schools, grades teachers typically rise with their class to the next grade- all the way from first to eighth in many cases!)

To give the new teacher the opportunity to meet the parents on her own, I chose to stay out of sight until the event began.  I walked down a dark hallway to the room used by a support teacher.  I didn’t turn on the hall light but I did turn on the light in the room so I could get some work done while I waited.  I shut the door behind me, thinking “No one will find me here.”

I heard voices but assumed that they would see the teacher standing in the doorway of the first grade room, notice the group of parents, and head that way.  Instead, the door swung open and a couple stood there looking at me.  I got up, extended my hand, and said, “You must be here for the First Grade Welcoming Tea.  I’m Susan Korsnick, the rising second grade teacher.”  The woman shook my hand but the man stopped in mid-shake, saying “Korsnick?  Korsnick?  The principal at my old school was named Korsnick.”

This is definitely NOT a common last name but I knew my uncle, Jack Korsnick, was a principal in Maryland years ago.  “Are you talking about Jack Korsnick?”  He was.  He went on to tell me that he was a student in the school on a track for an electrician program but he always wanted to work with cars.  My uncle told him, “It’s important to be happy”, and made it possible for the boy to switch into the program he wanted.  “Your uncle was a great man.  He inspired me and supported me every step of the way.”

He then went on to say that after graduation, he volunteered with an EMS (Emergency Medical Service) in Maryland.  One evening, a 911 call came in.  He arrived at the house and went upstairs to the bedroom where a man had collapsed from a massive heart attack.  He tried to resuscitate him but couldn’t.  My Uncle Jack was already dead.

Why am I telling you all this?  This man from Maryland, who was inspired by my uncle as a boy and later tried to save his life, was in a small private school in southcentral Pennsylvania, after regular school hours.  He turned right instead of left and got lost on his way to the first grade classroom.  Instead of turning around at the beginning of that long, dark hallway, he chose to walk down it and found me.  Me- Jack Korsnick’s niece.

I sincerely believe that man was a messenger, gifting me the encouraging message that Uncle Jack gifted him decades ago.  I believe my uncle was speaking to me through him.

“It’s important to be happy.”  

My journals were full of reflections on life, spirituality, and what I was yearning for in some ways.  Years ago, I knew I wasn’t quite where I wanted to be, who I wanted to be with, or doing what I wanted to be doing.  Life was good and I felt guilty thinking it but “It wasn’t good enough”.  I was feeling growing pains… a transformation.  Life just didn’t fit anymore.

We have intuitive powers beyond anything we can comprehend.  Very few of us realize that and even fewer trust it enough to take action when truths are revealed.  I’m here to tell you that the Universe is on your side.  It wants you to not just grow but thrive and be happy.  Call it Source, God, Goddess, Great Spirit, whatever you want; I call the energy that connects us all- LOVE.

I use creativity to connect to my intuition.  Making art and writing reveal myself to me.

Wings are Meant for Flying by Susan Korsnick

 

Dreams and synchronicities are messengers.  They validate our intuition and encourage us to live life in bold colors.

The Wanderer (Tarot card from Wildwood Tarot by Mark Ryan and John Matthews)

Lessons Learned

  1. I already know.
  2. I can connect more deeply with my intuition through creativity.
  3. The Universe (LOVE) will send me all kinds of signs to support my intuition.
  4. When the time is right, I’ll be ready to fly.

Come to the Edge

“Come to the edge”, he said.  

They said, “We are afraid.”

“Come to the edge”, he said.

They came.

He pushed them… and they flew.

Apolliaire