Come Home to Your Self

The Message I Needed to Hear

Late last spring, I received a one-word message from my intuition, “Home”.   After a busy year of teaching, two consecutive summers of work-related traveling, and the end of a significant relationship, this was a welcome word that I took literally.  I stayed home to create art, take care of my house and pets, and tend my garden.  To keep this story short, what I got for my effort was bare skin covered with ant bites and a bee sting on my lip that caused significant swelling.  “I stayed home for this?!”, I complained out loud.  And just as clear as that one word message I received in the spring, I heard, “Come home to your Self.”  Actually, I think I heard, “Duh, Suz!  Home means come home to your Self.”  The Universe has a sense of humor!

What did it mean?  Start doing things differently.  Like what?  (I was full of questions but unaware that I was full of the answers, too, if I would only listen.)

At first, I felt stuck.  I heard that “when one door closes, another opens.”  But, I didn’t see any open doors, sun-filled windows, or light through a keyhole beckoning me.  I was facing the wrong direction.  I was focused on what I didn’t want and what wasn’t working.

The Choice

There were two choices- stand still and stay stuck or take a step.  It sounds a bit flippant and oh-so easy but it’s not.  It takes a lot of courage to take the first step in the direction you want to go.  You don’t have to run or even walk… just take one small step and it will guide the next step.

“Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. 

Tiptoe if you must, but… take the step!” 

Naeem Calaway

Journey of Love

I realized that coming home to my Self is a Journey of Love.  Whoa, hold on just a minute!  Isn’t it selfish to put my Self first?  Absolutely not!  How can I offer anyone else a drink from an empty cup?  I had to fill my chalice first.  I had to be “Self-Full”.  Keep in mind, I said this is a “journey”, not a destination.  It meant reprioritizing.  Making space.  Saying “No thank you” to things I didn’t want to do.  Taking care of my body, mind, and spirit.  Having fun.  Reconnecting with people I love.  Doing less so I could be more present.  It meant loving, accepting, and respecting myself.  It meant having the courage to be authentic… and visible.

Home Means…

  • I choose Love over fear.
  • I express gratitude for all the treasures in my life.
  • I focus on what I want with greater clarity and intention.
  • I use my creativity as a portal to connect me to my inner wisdom (intuition, highest self…).
  • I allow my inner wisdom to guide my choices.
  • I follow “YES”.  Even if it’s a baby step, I take the step.
  • I release, with loving kindness, what no longer serves.
  • I connect to the Divine energy in all that is seen and unseen- the Divine within me, too.
  • I trust the Mystery- relinquishing the desire to control outcomes so the real magic can happen!
  • I accept myself for being human…a perfectly imperfect human being.

Come Home to Your Self is a Journey of Love… it begins with one brave step!

When we can love ourselves and have the confidence to show up authentically,

our example gives those around us permission to do the same.

My Calendar of Events lists upcoming workshops and retreats where I guide people on the journey back to Self through creativity, intuitive experiences, ceremony, visualizations, and more.

 

 

Shining Light

Are there certain songs, that when you hear them, have the power to bring back memories as clearly as if you were experiencing them again? Are there certain songs, that when you hear them, capture who you are in this moment? “Shining Light” by Annie Lennox is that song for me. As I strike out on a new adventure, redefining who I am, I embrace this uplifting song as my unofficial theme song.

“Shining Light” is positive and empowering. “Sovereign bride of the infinite, Yeah, you are a shining light.” Wow! That fills me with confidence and the belief that anything is possible if I let my light shine. In any given moment, there are infinite possibilities available to us. Some small- “What will I have for breakfast?” Some major- “Is it time to end this relationship or time to leave this job?” How different life could be if we recognized that we are light beings, connected to all that is!

I can choose to crumble under the fear, hatred, and ignorance playing out around the world (especially in politics). Or, I can choose to stand in love with all of the amazing people who make a positive difference because they let their light shine.

I CHOOSE LOVE.

So Annie, if you are reading this, your song captured the spirit of how I want to walk in the world. Thank you for this inspiring anthem!

I’M GOING TO LET MY LIGHT SHINE!

“Shining Light”

Annie Lennox

Roman candles that burn in the night
Yeah, you are a shining light
You lit a torch in the infinite
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life

You’ve always been a thorn in their side
But to me you’re a shining light
You arrive and the night is alive
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life

We made our connection
A full on chemical reaction
Brought by dark divine intervention
Yeah, you are a shining light
A constellation once seen
Over Royal David’s city
An epiphany you burn so pretty
Yeah, you are a shining light

You are a force, you are a constant source
Yeah you are a shining light
Incandescent in the darkest night
Yeah you are shining light
My mortal blood I would sacrifice
For you are a shining light
Sovereign bride of the infinite
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life

We made our connection
A full on chemical reaction
Brought by dark divine intervention
Yeah, you are a shining light
A constellation once seen
Over Royal David’s city
An epiphany you burn so pretty
Yeah, you are a shining light

And these are days you often say
There’s nothing that we can’t do
Beneath a canopy of stars
I’d shed blood for you
The north star in the firmament
You shine the most bright
I’ve seen you draped in an electric veil
Shrouded in celestial light

We made our connection
A full on chemical reaction
Brought by dark divine intervention
Yeah, you are a shining light
A constellation once seen
Over Royal David’s city
An epiphany you burn so pretty
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life

Songwriters: Tim Wheeler

Shining Light lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group

Primal Scream Heard Around the World

Come Together II

 

I woke the other day to the Huffington Post headline that began with the words, “Women Let Out a Primal Scream“.  The urge to scream wells up in me and I know in many women (and some men) all over the world.  Some scream in public; some scream in private; some scream inside without letting out a sound.  If you are one of these women, or a man who screams in support, this post is for you.

What Was Hidden Has Simply Been Revealed

In my previous blog post, Balance, I cited Ken Carey’s book, Return of the Bird Tribes.  I have to see it as synchronistic when each chapter I read speaks to exactly what is going on in our world.

He writes “The Great Day of Purification has begun, a short but essential cycle of division that will gather those who promote fear and violence and separate them from this season of the world as chaff is separated from wheat at threshing….  As the sun rises, the shadows become sharper and more clearly defined.  As the energies of love grow stronger, the shadows of fear become more visible than before.  To some it may even appear that they have grown in number and in strength, but this is not so.  What was hidden has simply been revealed- that it might be healed and brought to peace.

I equate it to turning on the light in the kitchen and seeing hundreds of cockroaches scurrying around the floor and countertops.  They were hidden in the darkness but turning on the light revealed the level of the infestation.  The difference between the cockroaches and what is going on now is that the roaches would retreat back into the darkness.  That isn’t happening here.  They are boldly standing in the light for all of us to see.  As awful as that sounds, we now see the problem and can deal with it.  Yes, the first instinct is to scream.  The second instinct is to act.

Change is Occurring Everywhere

Ken Carey goes on to say, “You do not have to be a scholar to notice the direction and momentum of history.  Even a child can observe these times and know that fundamental changes are being wrought deep in the collective heart of humankind.  Something is changing on the surface as well.  You are here to help it change easily.  You have only to make the choice to shift the center of your motivation from fear to love.  Make the choice.

Make the Choice

Easier said than done, right?  I agree.  But if we each do what we can in our own unique way, we can be the change we want to see in the world.  I’ve been thinking about this a lot.  NEVER in history have oppressors succeeded for long.  In every culture and time that I can think of, eventually positive change comes.  Does it start at the “top” with governments and religious institutions?  Never (that I can think of).  It always starts with the brave person(s) who decides to take a stand.  The hope I carry now is that we are those brave people and we aren’t alone.

I’m a teacher, an artist, and an energy worker.  I will do my part.

What can you do?

What talents, strengths, skills, and gifts can you bring to this?

How can you use your uniqueness to affect positive change?

You may feel called to write, sign petitions, create art (visual arts, poems, songs…), become an activist, support your beliefs financially, educate, or run for office.  Let the knowledge of what is happening inspire, motivate, and guide you.  WE MATTER!

A New Way

What worked at one time no longer serves.  Carey likens it to eating out of a garden that grew in centuries past.  The food of that time has long since rotted.  There is no nourishment there.  We need to plant new seeds, nurture them, harvest them, and share the bounty with others.

We are stewards, caretakers of our world.  It is said that the true leaders, teachers, and healers will recognize what is going on and be the first to act.  You are among them.  We are “them”.

When we feel helpless, frustrated, and paralyzed by fear, Carey writes “You are doubting your own power.  You are not vibrating fast enough to channel the immense energies of creation because your attention is scattered and you are closed to the one moment where the love that would quicken you exists: the moment where you are.”

How Beautiful It Is

I’ll leave you with more from Ken Carey.

“As the new information society bubbles over into global spiritual awakening, we come to join with our human egos on a scale unprecedented throughout all of history.  People turn once again to the Great Spirit who is the source of all information.  Rapidly in some, gradually in others, our egos discover their appropriate roles in the communication of this new awareness.  And there is naturally distortion at first.  But in the explosion of consciousness, it is soon purified.  Our spirits incarnate in ever growing numbers.  Distortion diminishes.  Truth spreads.  And how beautiful it is!”

Every significant change in history starts with everyday people doing extraordinary things.

We are those people and our time is now.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tiptoe If You Must But Say YES

Tiptoe if You Must

 

“Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. 

Tiptoe if you must, but… TAKE THE NEXT STEP”. Naeem Calloway

Say YES to the life you want to live.

Fear and Yes

As I commit to living the life I dream of living, I admit that “Fear” is a big factor.  Fear can prevent me from taking the next step… or fear of living a smaller, unfulfilled life can actually motivate me, even if only to tiptoe and take a baby step.  Any movement in the right direction, no matter how small, is the next step to take.  Is fear preventing me from living my best life or inspiring me to make changes so that my best life becomes a reality?  That is the million-dollar question!

Saying “No” Leads to Saying “Yes”

This is a hard one for me.  I’m not someone who likes to say “No”.  I don’t like to disappoint people and I like to do what I can to serve.  But saying “Yes” to every opportunity or favor asked gets in the way of saying “yes” to myself.  Of course, I could spread myself thin and try to do it all but that doesn’t bring me any closer to the life I want to live.

I am learning the fine art of saying “No” to what drains me or pulls me further off course from the life I am manifesting.  It takes strength and some discernment.  I may disappoint people along the way.  Would I rather do that or disappoint myself and put my own health, needs, and dreams on the back burner?  This isn’t a selfish choice; this is an empowering, self-honoring choice that leads to greater fulfillment, happiness, and more energy to give others I love.  A short-term “No” clears space for a long-term “Yes”.

YES with Hearts

What if You Aren’t Sure?

What if you aren’t sure whether you are sensing an honest “No” or “Yes”?  Connect to your intuition by trying this…

  1. Get very still and quiet.
  2. Imagine someone is asking you to do something.  Something that is a definite “No” for you.  Something you really don’t want to do.  Imagine it in great detail.
    • Where are you?
    • Who are you with?
    • What is happening?
    • How does the scene play out?
  3. Now, focus on your body.  Where in your body do you feel your response to this obvious “No”?  How does it feel?

Do the same thing with a definite “Yes”.  Imagine that an opportunity arises to do something you’ve wanted to do for a long time.  Something that if it came along, you would respond with an eager “Yes!” without having to stop and think about it.

  1. Where are you?
  2. Who are you with?
  3. How does the scene play out?
  4. Focus again on your body.  Where in your body do you feel your response to this offer?  How does it feel to say “Yes”?

YES with Heart

A “No” Might Have Been a “Yes”

I am aware that a “No” might have been a “Yes” once upon a time.  The relationship that was so wonderful in the beginning has gone from “Yes” to “No”.  The job that aligned with my skills and talents has changed for a variety of reasons; it felt right but doesn’t any longer.

It could be any number of things that were right at the time but aren’t any longer- you’ve grown; you’ve changed; you have new dreams or goals.  Something else is calling to you and you can’t help but listen.

Is the current situation one that can be turned into a “Yes” with some tweaking or is it a “No” that needs released to make room for a “Yes”?

I’ve learned to trust my gut instinct- my intuition.  It has always, without exception, led me in the right direction.

I suffer most when I ignore my intuition and try way too long to turn a “No” situation into a “Yes”.  This was my way of trying to fix things or hope that they will somehow fix themselves- if I ignore them long enough.  Someone told me that if I ignore the whispers of my intuition, I’ll get hit with “a spiritual 2 by 4”.  The Divine will continue to escalate the situation until I pay attention.  Things will get more uncomfortable and more miserable the longer I ignore the wisdom inside that is trying to guide me.

YES with Wings

Questions that Guide Me

There are some questions I can ask to keep myself on the path I choose to travel.

  1. Who am I now?
  2. How do I want others to see me?
  3. What is the “Yes” beckoning me?
  4. What is stopping me from taking a step in the direction that is calling to me?
  5. Am I ready to take a big step or do I need to tiptoe or take a baby step?

In The Summer Day, Mary Oliver asks,

“What is it you plan to do with your ONE wild and precious life?”

I’d love to hear your answer.

My post Saying Yes Leads to the Next Yes offers more insight into how “Yes” can guide and change your life.

Watch Whitney Freya’s inspiring YouTube video for the #YESextravaganza this month.